Hahaha ok so that was slightly sarcastic, but I have to be sarcastic and crack jokes to avoid having 4975794 emotional breakdowns like I did yesterday. I know I don't blog regularly so anyone who reads this probably has no clue what is going on, so I'll give you the run down...
I have been at the same college since I started. I love this place. My whole life is here...my best friends, my boyfriend, etc. This is the place where I have made the memories that are going to last me forever. Ok, enough of that, this place is awesome, etc etc. I'm getting sad again. Fast forward to now, my major is speech-language pathology which = you have to go to grad school to actually be certified and get a job. Well somewhere in the last two years of speech pathology classes, I fell in love with audiology, which is related to speech, but is obviously the study of hearing, which = different grad school degree.
I applied to two audiology schools and my current school to get my master's in speech. I got into my dream school for audiology, but I desperately needed to get a graduate assistantship because this school is out of state and it's a four year doctorate program. Well, I didn't get that assistantship...yet. The director of the program has told me that I am next in line. Basically, I'm waiting on someone to decide to go to another school and give up what is basically a full ride scholarship plus a job that pays you $800 a month. Who in their right mind is going to do that??? That's right, probably NOBODY!
As a backup, I have been accepted to my current school's speech program. It's only a masters degree, it's in state, and I already have a job in this town. My friends are here. My boyfriend is here. So what's the problem right?
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! I have prayed about it, I have laughed about it, and more than anything, I have cried about it. I have to let both schools know what I am going to do by April 15th. Do I take the risk and the financial burden of going to my dream school to get a degree in what I really want to do? Or do I settle for something much more financially smart, that I would be alright with?
This is the weirdest transition period that I have ever been in in my life, which makes sense because this is the biggest decision that I have ever had to make. If you read all of this nonsense, I apologize for the run-on sentences, misspelled words, and terrible use of commas, but if you have any advice, it would be greatly appreciated :)
First: your blog is super cute! Second: I totally feel your pain! I am a senior but I am going to have to do another year, problem is I have no idea what I want to do. So congratulations on having passion for something! Also congratulations on getting into grad school!
ReplyDeleteI think that you should go to your dream school! You only get one shot, so why settle when you can do what you love. You should never put your dreams on hold for anything, because there is always a way to make it work. Plus God has his plan and will let you know what to do. (unfortunately I still waiting!)
Good luck with everything!
TFJ <3